FAMILY

To be a mom and wife is definately one of the most challenging positions I have had to date.  When everyone is happy and laughing and life is great, then it is one of the most beautiful positions to have.  One that you would not want to change for anything.  When there is turmoil and the conversations are "There is nothing wrong with me"  "Other families never argue like this"  "So and so's mom always does this for them"  or "So and so's wifes always has a beautifully cooked meal for the family"  etc etc, when you realise how easy it would be to run away screaming, to think of a life in exile and life where you dont belong to anybody and nobody belongs to you.  When you can get up when you want to, eat when you want to, well actually when your time is your time. No lifts, no cooking, no loads of washing, no interrupted sleep and no worries.

Then you go for a walk on the beach around the little rock pools, and see familys having fun laughing together, calling each other to come see what they have found and you realise how you would never change the title of Mom or Wife for anything.

INNER PEACE

This morning during my yoga practise I had an insight of deep inner peace.  Deep inner peace is not about anybody else, it is all about yourself.  It is about accepting yourself, circumstances, others and the world as it is and being totally OK and happy about it.  It is about surrendering and loving the moment and everything in that moment.  No guilty feelings, no worring, no ego, no hating your body or bank balance but just being grateful  and accepting for what you do have.

in the moment

Wow what a wonderful place to be in - but very hard to achieve.  I wonder how many people ever totally achieve this.  How do we achieve this state of living, the only way I can think is by meditation, or maybe also with our thoughts.  Maybe it is part of our lifes journey to work towards achieving this state.

Moody Seas.

Going for a early morning walk along the sea front with the moody windy weather, the tide at its peak and the sun still hidden.  Wow what a great time to get into all the negative pent ups in my life and let them go, let them flow.  I can be as moody as the weather and the sea - I can just let my emotions peak and subside - I can walk faster leaving it all behind.  I can feel the freedom in the mood and I can hold onto what I want to and let go of it all as well.  How liberating are the moody sea and sky .........

Wedding Bliss

Well my eldest daughter is now married and what a pleasure weddings are.  They are so special and so filled with love.  You just have to watch the people and see the love doing its rounds, people getting tearful and thinking of their wedding date past or future.

Stopping the traffic

Stopping the traffic on a Saturday morning.  Well would it not be a memory for you to be driving along the road and see a bride and groom kissing in the middle of the road and all the guests walking along with them.  Such a special moment.

The Moment

Well another memory for a very young boy, watching the bride getting dressed and ready.  All that excitment and amazement on his face.  Also a special day he will always remember.

Across the ages

A very very proud granny checking in on her granddaughter getting dressed.  Full of love and hoping that her marriage will be filled with love and of course lots of children.

Family Time

The proud parents and sister really enjoying the day and excited about the fact that there is a new member going to be joining their family.  The Dad is especially excited that another male is joining him.  They are all in the moment, loving the photos and the day.

All the ladies

The three woman together, can they live together can they live apart.  The next step in their lives -one fleeing the nest and setting up her own making the circle bigger. Another one waiting for her day and looking forward to a time when she will also have her own place. They will continue to remain close and visit, the bond is there and always will be.

The Moment

Today I am feeling very peaceful - it feels like a deep peace. Which of my feelings is the real me.  Must be all of them.  I think I am definately evolving, learning to release, learning to live in the moment, this is the me that I wish would hang around more.  No urgency, no sadness, only the moment with all its blessings to be discovered.  The buddhists chanting in the background  The wind bringing sound to the stillness.  It is all so beautiful sometimes I wish time would stand still.  The smells of the burning incence connect me right to this moment.  Who wants a life that is planned down the the moment when you can rather discover yourself moment by moment, embracing and laughing at yourself and realizing the same within every energy particle on the plant.  Oh what a beautiful experience.  To be in love with the moment.

Art Class

Well on Wednesday I went to my art class and wow, so much for relaxing and painting. I get stressed break out in a sweat and battle to put the correct brush stroke on my canvas. Then my teacher comes over picks up my paint brush and with ease puts down a couple of brush strokes and what a difference it makes to my picture, just those few strokes.  It just makes me realise how much we need to just let go in life and go with the flow and within a couple of moves our lifes will look so different.  If we are too small and restricted then life will feel like it is stagnant.  We have to trust and make that brush stroke, if it looks or feels wrong we change it, but mostly it will be correct.

Next Move

Well I have put on my first comment, but now battling a bit to negotiate around this site, add photos etc. It seems crazy that there is this generation of e-people that just know what to do - while a whole bunch of us still battle along, blindly.  Oh come the day come the day.  Ok have also just added photo.  Getting better.

Such a beautiful pic of a water lilly, lotus flower.  To me it just symbolises beauty and peace, growing up from deep within the mud to this beautiful flower.  A reminder to us that we can grow through all the dark and unhappy places in our life and blossom into our beauty that is hidden deep within.