THE FARM

Farm Life

Farm Life


Well here I am, staying on a farm, 20 minutes drive to the closest beach - which is also one of the most amazing natural beaches, and the farm is at the foot of a beautiful mountain range. Not a huge big farm at all only about 4 hectres.  No animals except for two dogs and a cat, and my daughter is starting a permaculture kitchen garden.  It is so amazing to have her back living with us.  I just did not realise I would love this lifestyle so much.  Just goes to show when we are prepared to let go and go with the flow, there are good things waiting for us.

This place is so spiritual that I am really able to connect with the deepest part of me and start a healing process of just letting go with no urgency or desperation, just plain letting go and going with the flow.

Need to start a meditation group here, a channeling to me.  Dont even know how to begin that one but definately am working on it.  Also to build a labyrinth - which I have been reading up about and am really excited for that challenge.  There are great shifts happening and I feel that I am in the right place to honour these shifts.   Namaste and enjoy the shifts.

Let It Go.

Definately my words for 2013.  "Let it Go"  The thought of living the rest of my life carrying all this baggage around with me is definately not liberating or exciting at all.  Why do we carry things around with us that we dont even need, as in material possessions, thoughts, negative memories, etc.  The trick though is to know how to let it go.  

Well if it makes us feel uncomfortable, our heart beat faster or any negative feeling then try realise how meaningless it is to hold on to it.  Our ego wants us to carry this around so that we can prove we are right, that we are entitled to feel like this.  We maybe need to just take one issue and work on that one thing, maybe it is a person that really irritates and drains you when you are in their company. Next time you are in their presence understand that they are on their own journey and you dont need to take any responsibility for it, let it be their journey.  Listen to them without any attachment, just listen then LET IT GO. Let them be in their own space and stay in yours.  Feel the love for both of you or in the situation.

By the end of 2013 I would love to have mastered letting go, which means that I have to look within and realise my journey is going to take the route of whatever I allow myself to hold onto.  So here goes to understanding and realising what I need to Let Go Of.  Then let go with love.

TIME OF CHANGE

TIME OF CHANGE:

Today is the day that I have decided to stop taking my medication for thyroid and cholesterol.  I am going to exercise and make sure I am on the right diet.  I am so tired of the subtle side effects, that do actually play a big part in my life.  2013 is a year for looking after myself, my pathway and my soul and I know that once I have these things in order I will be able to really help those around me to find their health, happiness and pathways.

I am really enjoying taking photos and am now learning to add text.  The one on the left is for a road sign for the Sanctuary that I run and the one on the right is one that I have done for the Soul Sanctuary facebook page.

Three photos that I saw on the internet and just had to share as I think they are so amazing.  

humour and happiness

Spirals

Just simple everyday life, in the most beautiful colour.

re-invention.

I don't normally like to take other peoples pictures and creative ideas and use them on my blog page, but if I don't take the credit and just copy them for more people to see because I think they are so amazing, then I tell myself that it is OK.  Unfortunately, I do not know whose name to give the credit to, sorry.

DDD

If you have a vision for your life, you need to take control and guide your life in the direction of your vision.  If you are whimsy and non committal you cannot expect your vision to take shape.  People always want to part with their ideas of life onto us and it is so easy to go along and get caught up in someone else's vision in life.  Sometimes it just feels easier to go with someone else, but at some point we need to come back to who we are and what we want in life.

Believe in yourself always, move forward towards your goals.  If  you don't have a goal you have nothing to move towards.  Have long and short terms goals, short terms like little stepping stones, so that you can see some achievement.  Be excited about your goals and never view them with any negativity they are positive milestones in your life.

FLOW AND RELEASE

It is so amazing how  when you go with the flow and release any desired outcomes, how things change to your highest good without you even having to work hard at it.  I am now running the Soul Sanctuary and have half shares in the one esoteric retail shop inside the Soul Sanctuary.  I could not have planned that, but I am absolutely loving the way it has worked out.

It is so funny, now that I am happy that I am going to be staying in Durban for a while longer  I pick up a book to read and it is about how Durban is going to have tsunamis and is a real hotspot for earth changes and that it would be better to move further inland.  It is so important to be able to live each moment fully and enjoy it, if we could be so totally in the moment then when we move to the next moment we will not take anything forward with us because with have dealt with everything in that moment.

Life Changes

Whew, you know life how it can all just change in a moment.  Well my life seems to be at one of those crossroads at the moment, I mean my husband has sold his shares in his business and now a year later wants to change direction.  I have mostly been a city girl, living in the city or just on the outskirts and except for a brief three year inland stay in my early twenties, have always lived right near the beach.
 

Well now my husband Dave, who I think is a bit of a visionary, has decided that we need to go and live on a farm, a huge farm with water and trees.  He thinks he has now found this farm in another province at least a two hours drive from any sort of beach, half an hours drive from the nearest village, which is tiny tiny, and two hours drive to the nearest city.  It has a working forest and sawmill and a rather large river running all the way along the one boundry within the farm.  It is also huge huge huge.  I have also always been used to a tropical climate, which I absolutely love and the climate at the farm is quite a dry one.  Talk about life changes and am I scared, yes hell I am.  It means leaving my children, my friends, my business, my comfort zones and going into totally unknown terrority. At least it is not a cattle farm so there will be no slaughtering of animals, which he would not do anyway, I just have to see about cutting down trees, I love trees (maybe I can go and save them).


Am I going to do it.  Well someone has just out of the blue with no planning on my part, just taken over my shares in the business and we are going down to the farm for 10 days next month to have a look.  All I am trying to do is stay with the truth of my soul, to find the alignment with my soul and to have an open mind.  When you are walking your spiritual path you have to be open and flexible and try see the bigger picture with no attachments to any outcome. To realise that going for a walk on the beach every day if I want to, doing yoga and tai chi classes, to having this convenient lifestyle - is that wrong - I will have to discover different ways of exercising, different walks to take.





I think my lesson here is to just live for the day and not start worrying about what my future might be like.  To plan properly and go down and have a look at the farm, area etc, with the excitement of  going on a new adventure and not to close myself off from any experiences I might have or wonderful people I may meet.

Beautiful city lights have something so magical about them, they really bring out an excitement in me.

The most beautiful wonder in life for me is the sea.  It has its own life, its own moods, its own destiny and heals the whole of humanity by just being what it is.

My Country

Thank You

I am so grateful for what my country has to teach me.  I know that I chose to be here in South Africa and every day I am so humbled by what an amazing country it is, with such a diverse culture and mixture of people.  If we could only all see the good in our surroundings and what each moment has to offer for our growth.  If we could all give love and thanks to that moment.  If we could all realise that all these different aspects are needed by us for us to grow.

Our earth was here long before us, and will be here long after we have gone. The mountains, the sea, the wild life all have their own way of survival, as do we humans - and if we could all live together respecting the differences, but understanding that we need each other, we would all feel the freedom meant for us.

Freedom

An  vendor selling ice creams on the beach on a hot day, with a huge big smile, even though it is so hot and his ice bucket is heavy. He is hoping to make a sale. Giraffes crossing the road, these are not scenes that you would see everywhere in the world, these are uniquely South African scenes, and they are what humbles me and makes me grateful to be living in such an amazing country.



                                                         South Africa I am glad I chose you.

My Healing Practice

I have always loved colour, sound and touch, so when I came across Antaneea Healing which incorporates all three, I knew that this was for me.

Antaneea Healing is a gentle soul massage working over the back of the body only.  13 Coloured oils, soul massage and sound vibration, are used together with a deep awareness and acknowledgement of the soul, leaving you feeling safe, supported and transformed while also balancing the chakras.  During the process destructive patterns of the past are released helping you to take back control of your own lives.

The session is completed by gentle pressure being applied to 12 pulse points on the ears, this promotes access to deeply held subconcious memories.

The oils are hand blended in a sacred environment, using essential oils, crystals and organic colour.  Each one is specially created to heal and support each part of the body that it is applied to.

I work from the Soul Sanctuary every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.

 I try to practice Zen Buddhism - as the truth of being in the moment connects very much to my heart and  passion.  I love being in the outdoors, especially at the beach or in the mountains where I can snap away happily with my camera. Another love of mine is oil paintings, and I have recently started lessons which  keep me very much in the moment, almost like a meditation.

Hearts

Sitting in meditation this morning I realised how closed my heart still is.  I always work on opening my heart chakra and see it spinning beautifully and evenly and assuming that My heart chakra was very open and accepting of everyone and everything.  I now see that it is still very closed and needs to be continuously worked on, it can never be too open and loving.

To love the whole world, good and bad, pretty and ugly, dark and light.  Wow that is hard and to realise this then think I had an open heart, no way, I still have so much work to do. To see the good and bad and love them both equally, knowing we need them both.  We need everything that is around us and the more we can accept it all with a loving heart, the more our hearts will open and the more we will grow, and connect back to our original source.

To really love with all our heart is to love through walls, through conditions, through obstacles - through anything that tries to stop that love.  To get to that place our heart will  just be open to love with no thought of any other way but LOVE

Forward Movement

Be intense in your healings and your desires in life.  Want with no doubt and do all you need to do in each moment.  All I want to do in life is to move forward without any attachments to the past.  Just to move forward from a place of love and light.  I can do it and I will do it, in fact I am busy doing it.  My own personal power is oh so strong and I refuse to hide it.  In fact it is not hidden - it is bursting forth in great waves of energy - one step forward at a time - continuously.

I am just putting one foot in front of the other and trying to carve a spiritual purposeful life for myself.  Sometimes we do wonder - well I do - whether we are following the right path, we like to think we are but there are times when our intuition lets us know that we have side stepped.  It is usually because we have something to sort out to get us more focused on our next correct step.  Sometimes we get back on our pathway quickly and sometimes it takes a bit longer.

FAMILY

To be a mom and wife is definately one of the most challenging positions I have had to date.  When everyone is happy and laughing and life is great, then it is one of the most beautiful positions to have.  One that you would not want to change for anything.  When there is turmoil and the conversations are "There is nothing wrong with me"  "Other families never argue like this"  "So and so's mom always does this for them"  or "So and so's wifes always has a beautifully cooked meal for the family"  etc etc, when you realise how easy it would be to run away screaming, to think of a life in exile and life where you dont belong to anybody and nobody belongs to you.  When you can get up when you want to, eat when you want to, well actually when your time is your time. No lifts, no cooking, no loads of washing, no interrupted sleep and no worries.

Then you go for a walk on the beach around the little rock pools, and see familys having fun laughing together, calling each other to come see what they have found and you realise how you would never change the title of Mom or Wife for anything.

INNER PEACE

This morning during my yoga practise I had an insight of deep inner peace.  Deep inner peace is not about anybody else, it is all about yourself.  It is about accepting yourself, circumstances, others and the world as it is and being totally OK and happy about it.  It is about surrendering and loving the moment and everything in that moment.  No guilty feelings, no worring, no ego, no hating your body or bank balance but just being grateful  and accepting for what you do have.

in the moment

Wow what a wonderful place to be in - but very hard to achieve.  I wonder how many people ever totally achieve this.  How do we achieve this state of living, the only way I can think is by meditation, or maybe also with our thoughts.  Maybe it is part of our lifes journey to work towards achieving this state.

Moody Seas.

Going for a early morning walk along the sea front with the moody windy weather, the tide at its peak and the sun still hidden.  Wow what a great time to get into all the negative pent ups in my life and let them go, let them flow.  I can be as moody as the weather and the sea - I can just let my emotions peak and subside - I can walk faster leaving it all behind.  I can feel the freedom in the mood and I can hold onto what I want to and let go of it all as well.  How liberating are the moody sea and sky .........

Wedding Bliss

Well my eldest daughter is now married and what a pleasure weddings are.  They are so special and so filled with love.  You just have to watch the people and see the love doing its rounds, people getting tearful and thinking of their wedding date past or future.

Stopping the traffic

Stopping the traffic on a Saturday morning.  Well would it not be a memory for you to be driving along the road and see a bride and groom kissing in the middle of the road and all the guests walking along with them.  Such a special moment.

The Moment

Well another memory for a very young boy, watching the bride getting dressed and ready.  All that excitment and amazement on his face.  Also a special day he will always remember.

Across the ages

A very very proud granny checking in on her granddaughter getting dressed.  Full of love and hoping that her marriage will be filled with love and of course lots of children.

Family Time

The proud parents and sister really enjoying the day and excited about the fact that there is a new member going to be joining their family.  The Dad is especially excited that another male is joining him.  They are all in the moment, loving the photos and the day.

All the ladies

The three woman together, can they live together can they live apart.  The next step in their lives -one fleeing the nest and setting up her own making the circle bigger. Another one waiting for her day and looking forward to a time when she will also have her own place. They will continue to remain close and visit, the bond is there and always will be.

The Moment

Today I am feeling very peaceful - it feels like a deep peace. Which of my feelings is the real me.  Must be all of them.  I think I am definately evolving, learning to release, learning to live in the moment, this is the me that I wish would hang around more.  No urgency, no sadness, only the moment with all its blessings to be discovered.  The buddhists chanting in the background  The wind bringing sound to the stillness.  It is all so beautiful sometimes I wish time would stand still.  The smells of the burning incence connect me right to this moment.  Who wants a life that is planned down the the moment when you can rather discover yourself moment by moment, embracing and laughing at yourself and realizing the same within every energy particle on the plant.  Oh what a beautiful experience.  To be in love with the moment.