FLOW AND RELEASE

It is so amazing how  when you go with the flow and release any desired outcomes, how things change to your highest good without you even having to work hard at it.  I am now running the Soul Sanctuary and have half shares in the one esoteric retail shop inside the Soul Sanctuary.  I could not have planned that, but I am absolutely loving the way it has worked out.

It is so funny, now that I am happy that I am going to be staying in Durban for a while longer  I pick up a book to read and it is about how Durban is going to have tsunamis and is a real hotspot for earth changes and that it would be better to move further inland.  It is so important to be able to live each moment fully and enjoy it, if we could be so totally in the moment then when we move to the next moment we will not take anything forward with us because with have dealt with everything in that moment.

Life Changes

Whew, you know life how it can all just change in a moment.  Well my life seems to be at one of those crossroads at the moment, I mean my husband has sold his shares in his business and now a year later wants to change direction.  I have mostly been a city girl, living in the city or just on the outskirts and except for a brief three year inland stay in my early twenties, have always lived right near the beach.
 

Well now my husband Dave, who I think is a bit of a visionary, has decided that we need to go and live on a farm, a huge farm with water and trees.  He thinks he has now found this farm in another province at least a two hours drive from any sort of beach, half an hours drive from the nearest village, which is tiny tiny, and two hours drive to the nearest city.  It has a working forest and sawmill and a rather large river running all the way along the one boundry within the farm.  It is also huge huge huge.  I have also always been used to a tropical climate, which I absolutely love and the climate at the farm is quite a dry one.  Talk about life changes and am I scared, yes hell I am.  It means leaving my children, my friends, my business, my comfort zones and going into totally unknown terrority. At least it is not a cattle farm so there will be no slaughtering of animals, which he would not do anyway, I just have to see about cutting down trees, I love trees (maybe I can go and save them).


Am I going to do it.  Well someone has just out of the blue with no planning on my part, just taken over my shares in the business and we are going down to the farm for 10 days next month to have a look.  All I am trying to do is stay with the truth of my soul, to find the alignment with my soul and to have an open mind.  When you are walking your spiritual path you have to be open and flexible and try see the bigger picture with no attachments to any outcome. To realise that going for a walk on the beach every day if I want to, doing yoga and tai chi classes, to having this convenient lifestyle - is that wrong - I will have to discover different ways of exercising, different walks to take.





I think my lesson here is to just live for the day and not start worrying about what my future might be like.  To plan properly and go down and have a look at the farm, area etc, with the excitement of  going on a new adventure and not to close myself off from any experiences I might have or wonderful people I may meet.

Beautiful city lights have something so magical about them, they really bring out an excitement in me.

The most beautiful wonder in life for me is the sea.  It has its own life, its own moods, its own destiny and heals the whole of humanity by just being what it is.

My Country

Thank You

I am so grateful for what my country has to teach me.  I know that I chose to be here in South Africa and every day I am so humbled by what an amazing country it is, with such a diverse culture and mixture of people.  If we could only all see the good in our surroundings and what each moment has to offer for our growth.  If we could all give love and thanks to that moment.  If we could all realise that all these different aspects are needed by us for us to grow.

Our earth was here long before us, and will be here long after we have gone. The mountains, the sea, the wild life all have their own way of survival, as do we humans - and if we could all live together respecting the differences, but understanding that we need each other, we would all feel the freedom meant for us.

Freedom

An  vendor selling ice creams on the beach on a hot day, with a huge big smile, even though it is so hot and his ice bucket is heavy. He is hoping to make a sale. Giraffes crossing the road, these are not scenes that you would see everywhere in the world, these are uniquely South African scenes, and they are what humbles me and makes me grateful to be living in such an amazing country.



                                                         South Africa I am glad I chose you.

My Healing Practice

I have always loved colour, sound and touch, so when I came across Antaneea Healing which incorporates all three, I knew that this was for me.

Antaneea Healing is a gentle soul massage working over the back of the body only.  13 Coloured oils, soul massage and sound vibration, are used together with a deep awareness and acknowledgement of the soul, leaving you feeling safe, supported and transformed while also balancing the chakras.  During the process destructive patterns of the past are released helping you to take back control of your own lives.

The session is completed by gentle pressure being applied to 12 pulse points on the ears, this promotes access to deeply held subconcious memories.

The oils are hand blended in a sacred environment, using essential oils, crystals and organic colour.  Each one is specially created to heal and support each part of the body that it is applied to.

I work from the Soul Sanctuary every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.

 I try to practice Zen Buddhism - as the truth of being in the moment connects very much to my heart and  passion.  I love being in the outdoors, especially at the beach or in the mountains where I can snap away happily with my camera. Another love of mine is oil paintings, and I have recently started lessons which  keep me very much in the moment, almost like a meditation.

Hearts

Sitting in meditation this morning I realised how closed my heart still is.  I always work on opening my heart chakra and see it spinning beautifully and evenly and assuming that My heart chakra was very open and accepting of everyone and everything.  I now see that it is still very closed and needs to be continuously worked on, it can never be too open and loving.

To love the whole world, good and bad, pretty and ugly, dark and light.  Wow that is hard and to realise this then think I had an open heart, no way, I still have so much work to do. To see the good and bad and love them both equally, knowing we need them both.  We need everything that is around us and the more we can accept it all with a loving heart, the more our hearts will open and the more we will grow, and connect back to our original source.

To really love with all our heart is to love through walls, through conditions, through obstacles - through anything that tries to stop that love.  To get to that place our heart will  just be open to love with no thought of any other way but LOVE

Forward Movement

Be intense in your healings and your desires in life.  Want with no doubt and do all you need to do in each moment.  All I want to do in life is to move forward without any attachments to the past.  Just to move forward from a place of love and light.  I can do it and I will do it, in fact I am busy doing it.  My own personal power is oh so strong and I refuse to hide it.  In fact it is not hidden - it is bursting forth in great waves of energy - one step forward at a time - continuously.

I am just putting one foot in front of the other and trying to carve a spiritual purposeful life for myself.  Sometimes we do wonder - well I do - whether we are following the right path, we like to think we are but there are times when our intuition lets us know that we have side stepped.  It is usually because we have something to sort out to get us more focused on our next correct step.  Sometimes we get back on our pathway quickly and sometimes it takes a bit longer.

FAMILY

To be a mom and wife is definately one of the most challenging positions I have had to date.  When everyone is happy and laughing and life is great, then it is one of the most beautiful positions to have.  One that you would not want to change for anything.  When there is turmoil and the conversations are "There is nothing wrong with me"  "Other families never argue like this"  "So and so's mom always does this for them"  or "So and so's wifes always has a beautifully cooked meal for the family"  etc etc, when you realise how easy it would be to run away screaming, to think of a life in exile and life where you dont belong to anybody and nobody belongs to you.  When you can get up when you want to, eat when you want to, well actually when your time is your time. No lifts, no cooking, no loads of washing, no interrupted sleep and no worries.

Then you go for a walk on the beach around the little rock pools, and see familys having fun laughing together, calling each other to come see what they have found and you realise how you would never change the title of Mom or Wife for anything.

INNER PEACE

This morning during my yoga practise I had an insight of deep inner peace.  Deep inner peace is not about anybody else, it is all about yourself.  It is about accepting yourself, circumstances, others and the world as it is and being totally OK and happy about it.  It is about surrendering and loving the moment and everything in that moment.  No guilty feelings, no worring, no ego, no hating your body or bank balance but just being grateful  and accepting for what you do have.

in the moment

Wow what a wonderful place to be in - but very hard to achieve.  I wonder how many people ever totally achieve this.  How do we achieve this state of living, the only way I can think is by meditation, or maybe also with our thoughts.  Maybe it is part of our lifes journey to work towards achieving this state.

Moody Seas.

Going for a early morning walk along the sea front with the moody windy weather, the tide at its peak and the sun still hidden.  Wow what a great time to get into all the negative pent ups in my life and let them go, let them flow.  I can be as moody as the weather and the sea - I can just let my emotions peak and subside - I can walk faster leaving it all behind.  I can feel the freedom in the mood and I can hold onto what I want to and let go of it all as well.  How liberating are the moody sea and sky .........

Wedding Bliss

Well my eldest daughter is now married and what a pleasure weddings are.  They are so special and so filled with love.  You just have to watch the people and see the love doing its rounds, people getting tearful and thinking of their wedding date past or future.

Stopping the traffic

Stopping the traffic on a Saturday morning.  Well would it not be a memory for you to be driving along the road and see a bride and groom kissing in the middle of the road and all the guests walking along with them.  Such a special moment.

The Moment

Well another memory for a very young boy, watching the bride getting dressed and ready.  All that excitment and amazement on his face.  Also a special day he will always remember.

Across the ages

A very very proud granny checking in on her granddaughter getting dressed.  Full of love and hoping that her marriage will be filled with love and of course lots of children.

Family Time

The proud parents and sister really enjoying the day and excited about the fact that there is a new member going to be joining their family.  The Dad is especially excited that another male is joining him.  They are all in the moment, loving the photos and the day.

All the ladies

The three woman together, can they live together can they live apart.  The next step in their lives -one fleeing the nest and setting up her own making the circle bigger. Another one waiting for her day and looking forward to a time when she will also have her own place. They will continue to remain close and visit, the bond is there and always will be.

The Moment

Today I am feeling very peaceful - it feels like a deep peace. Which of my feelings is the real me.  Must be all of them.  I think I am definately evolving, learning to release, learning to live in the moment, this is the me that I wish would hang around more.  No urgency, no sadness, only the moment with all its blessings to be discovered.  The buddhists chanting in the background  The wind bringing sound to the stillness.  It is all so beautiful sometimes I wish time would stand still.  The smells of the burning incence connect me right to this moment.  Who wants a life that is planned down the the moment when you can rather discover yourself moment by moment, embracing and laughing at yourself and realizing the same within every energy particle on the plant.  Oh what a beautiful experience.  To be in love with the moment.

Art Class

Well on Wednesday I went to my art class and wow, so much for relaxing and painting. I get stressed break out in a sweat and battle to put the correct brush stroke on my canvas. Then my teacher comes over picks up my paint brush and with ease puts down a couple of brush strokes and what a difference it makes to my picture, just those few strokes.  It just makes me realise how much we need to just let go in life and go with the flow and within a couple of moves our lifes will look so different.  If we are too small and restricted then life will feel like it is stagnant.  We have to trust and make that brush stroke, if it looks or feels wrong we change it, but mostly it will be correct.

Next Move

Well I have put on my first comment, but now battling a bit to negotiate around this site, add photos etc. It seems crazy that there is this generation of e-people that just know what to do - while a whole bunch of us still battle along, blindly.  Oh come the day come the day.  Ok have also just added photo.  Getting better.

Such a beautiful pic of a water lilly, lotus flower.  To me it just symbolises beauty and peace, growing up from deep within the mud to this beautiful flower.  A reminder to us that we can grow through all the dark and unhappy places in our life and blossom into our beauty that is hidden deep within.

opening

Well this is my opening day on my blog.  Have always done this manually in a journal but am now going the e-way.  The intention of this blog is personal, which means I would love to just capture my thoughts for myself. Gosh have so many thoughts on how this will work but one step at a time and today is about getting started. Well done to myself on achieving this.